oh Sam, there’s so many emotions in the mix and you are literally being pulled in so many directions … You are doing the best you can with what it was given to you and everyone knows you are doing your best, I guarantee they all know that. But I get it, we are always the hardest on ourselves and I also get the feeling of guilt that comes with certain thoughts…
I am also grieving the life I had before this diagnosis, I am just working on figuring out our new reality, focus in the positives and make the best of every day.
Hang in there xx