Hi @Billy1mate we hope you’ve been doing okay since posting on here? You did absolutely the right thing getting clarification about your personal level of risk with your haematologist. But like you say, we can completely appreciate this couldn’t have been easy to hear. We’re always here for support.
and just like @Erica said, please feel free to also join our Jukebox thread 
here is a link to it: The Friday Forum Jukebox Club!
Take care and please do keep reaching out,
Su