Hi, I have just joined the site hoping to get some reassurance for alternative possible causes of a hard 4cm neck lump that seems to have appeared out of nowhere. I am on the 2 weeks fastrack and I’m honestly terrified, I can’t think of anything else. Doctors have been acting weird where I’m use to normally being gaslight and every question I have asked that it might be or should I be worried has been met with a politicians response where they don’t actually answer the question. I am having an ultrasound on Sunday, but they have apparently decided not to take a biopsy because it’s hard which is what has worried me even more. I have just started a new job and have 2 children, and happily married. I am currently laid in bed crying as I type this thinking about what if I’m dying. I can’t handle it. I felt this lump about 4 weeks ago, the first doctor wanted me to wait 6 weeks but I went back last week after it felt nasty and saw my usual doctor who sent me for the urgent referral. I have existing conditions but I’ve never had something like this and I don’t know if I can handle it honestly. my skin is always clammy and sweating especially at night and apart from feeling it a few times in the past few days when eating IV got no other symptoms and thankfully my bloods are clear - however I do. know I have the nasty DNA genes. I’ve had no infections, nothing. Trouble is I don’t know how long it’s been there before I noticed it. so what other hard lumps grow where your lymph node is on one side that isn’t serious, if that’s even possible. I don’t know what to do with myself I can’t cope with not knowing 
please help
Hello @lil
My heart goes out to you at what is clearly a very concerning time for you.
Thank you for taking time to reach out, you will, I am confident, find this forum supportive and informative.
I can only imagine how this is impacting you, and its very clear you are in regular contact with your GP / medical experts.
Not knowing what’s wrong can be very difficult, and I hear your concern, and I experienced this earlier this year prior to my diagnosis. Never the less I truly hope and pray everything is okay when the test / scan results are available to you.
You may find the section - Blood cancer: mind and emotions | Blood Cancer UK - supportive, but beyond this you can always speak confidentially with our support services team for information and support on - 0808 2080 888.
Please remember, you are not alone and you are always welcome to come back to the forum for support, or just to let us know how you are, should you feel comfortable to do so.
Please take good care of your self
Mike