It’s finally sinking in and I am overwhelmed

Hi Everyone, I was looking for a forum following my diagnosis and I’m so glad I found this one. I have been having a read of the posts shared so far and it seems super supportive which is lovely to read.

I was officially diagnosed with Essential thrombocythemia (ET) back in September of 2023 after many years of blood tests. I’m in my 20s and to have this is scary as from my understanding it is not very common in young people. I am not currently on aspirin or treatment as it is being monitored every three months with blood tests and it is apparently stable at the moment but I’m still scared.

I am really struggling with fully accepting I have this and feel like there is so much information I am overwhelmed. I hate searching for answers on Google as it makes me feel worse. I am questioning everything I need to do to keep healthy as I suffer really badly with chronic fatigue. I would love to go to the gym but I just do not have the energy. I walk everyday for atleast 45 mins and then walking around the house (i can’t sit still!) and my diet isn’t bad but I know it could be better, but sometimes i get shakey and feel like I need a bit of sugar.

  • Do I need to take certain vitamins? Are there vitamins to avoid? (Will also ask my nurse)
  • what’s the best diet to be on? I have read Mediterranean is great for cardiovascular health
  • Any exercising tips?

I’m just curious to know how people are coping with these concerns. Any support would be appreciated and thank you in advance :heart:

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Hi @Amyyy I am so glad you have found us, trust me ‘Googling’ isn’t the best idea, it gave me a life expectancy of 5-10 yrs and here I am 20yrs on…
You have a contact nurse so please do use them, that is what they are there for and the questions you ask are best answered by them as they know you so much better than we do.
The Blood Cancer UK support line is also there for you on 0808 2080 888
You are now part of our forum family so you are never alone.
From what you say you are on something called active monitoring or watch and wait, with 3 monthly checks.
Unfortunately Essential thrombocythemia (ET) knows no age boundaries.
Have you got any support?
You sounds as if you are really struggling, which is completely natural, you have had an enormous shock, I needed to see my GP for help and talking therapy helped me.
I will also copy some information from Blood Cancer UK
Blood cancer and fatigue | Blood Cancer UK
Blood cancer: mind and emotions | Blood Cancer UK
[Blood cancer: money and work | Blood Cancer UK](https://bloodcancer.org.uk/support- Blood cancer and keeping active | Blood Cancer UKfor-you/living-well/money-work/)
Macmillan also offer some services
Emotional, financial and physical help for people with cancer | Macmillan Cancer Support
I hope I am not overloading you
I am so impressed with you walking at least 45 mins a day, I really find fresh air and appropriate exercise help me emotionally, mentally and actually with my fatigue.
Look after and be ever so kind to yourself and please do keep posting, I look forward to hearing more about you.

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Good afternoon @Amyyy, and anyone else “dipping in” to this topic. I am a 59 y/o Dad to 4 Daughters and Grandad to 3 of each variety of Grandkids and I was diagnosed with Essential thrombocythemia (ET) in early 2018 following my first (to date!) heart attack some 6 months earlier. Yes it was all a bit of a shock at the time, especially the blood cancer diagnosis as up until my heart attack I was a fairly active man. I have been on various doses and frequencies of Pegasys injections since then to try to control my platelet numbers.

Since then my energy levels have been the major side effect but how much of that is down to the Essential thrombocythemia (ET), the treatment for it, my various medical maladies, my “advanced age” (thanks girls!) or a combination of some or all of the above, nobody seems willing to say. Having said all of that you are now a part of this wonderfully supportive, friendly and helpful group, and there will always be a supportive, friendly and helpful word awaiting any question, query or rant and vent that you may have.

The best pieces of advice I can offer are to learn to listen to what your body is telling you (I can do this), then to act on the message (I simply cannot do this!) and to not overdo things (I struggle hugely with this one too!!), but life is there to be lived and enjoyed. I have found that once I had accepted the diagnosis as the answer to so many questions regarding my health (or lack thereof!) that many things became much easier. If you are in work then it is up to you whether you want to inform your employers of your diagnosis. I did so and I keep them fully appraised of any and all new developments and this gives me some leeway as well as some legal protection as a cancer diagnosis deems us to be disabled. This was also a hurdle to overcome as I don’t “feel disabled” and I am sure that you, being in your 20’s, absolutely do not want to think of yourself as being disabled either, which I can totally understand.

Google is okay for many topics of research but stick to official sites for any advice such as this one, MacMillan, the NHS and Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN) Voice.

Most importantly, you are not alone and there will always be a place here for you to ask the questions that you may not want to ask of family and close friends.

Finally (you’ll be glad to read!!!) take care, stay safe, be kind to yourself and keep on smiling.

Best wishes,

Jimbo165

PS. I fibbed, that wasn’t finally! But this is: I hope that @Erica, you are doing okay now and that your life is back on an even keel, so to speak.
Take care, stay safe keep smiling and be kind to yourself too.

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Hi @Erica thank you for your kind words. Yes I think I read that same life expectancy on Google and it scared me a lot! It’s wonderful to hear you have proved that wrong and I do hope you are also doing okay.

I haven’t contacted the nurse yet but I will do and have saved the helpline number. That’s correct, I am on active monitoring with blood tests every three months at the moment. My last result was that it’s stable and I do not need treatment at the moment which is a relief (however living with anxiety, I know that could change any minute which makes me stressed). I do have support around me, I’m very grateful I do but I don’t like to burden them at times.

Thank you so much for all the information (not overwhelmed me at all actually, it’s great to receive legitimate information). I like to walk everyday with my dogs (some days are harder and thankfully we have a nice garden so they get to burn off energy when my fatigue is really bad). I think fresh air has always done me the world of good and really does help me ground myself mentally and helps me feel a little more energised. Thank you again for responding and for your support, it means a lot. Take care and sending you well wishes :heart:

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Hi @Jimbo165 thank you for responding! I am so sorry to hear you suffered a heart attack and struggle yourself with this. I do hope you are doing as okay as you can.

Thank you for your kind words. It’s wonderful to hear this space is supportive and those within this group are always there if you need (so thank you!).

I am the absolute worse for overdoing it and agree life is if for living but I know I need to listen to my body more. I have started doing this more actually and I have to say I feel so much better for it. I spoke to my work (I work full time) and they were really understanding which was a relief. I thought it best I tell them as like you say legal protection etc. I didn’t actually know that deemed us as disabled, that makes sense tho, so I will have a read about that more.

Thank you again for responding and for your support, it means a lot. Take care and sending you well wishes :blush:

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Good evening @Amyyy, and everyone else. Thank you for your kind words. My heart attack wasn’t a huge surprise as my Dad had 9 in the space of 5 months, followed by a cardiac arrest, and still wouldn’t take the hint! He went on to have a quadruple bypass in the mid 80’s (a huge procedure then, about 13 hours under the knife), then a stroke a year or two later, and he still wouldn’t take the hint. He soldiered on for a further 7 years before finally succumbing to all that his body had endured to that point. And I’ve been the only male in the family for over 7 years now too.

You are more than welcome and I am happy to have been of some help. The members of the forum (sounds vaguely Frankie Howard-ish!) are without doubt the most helpful of people and are willing to share their knowledge and experiences in the hope that others may find it useful.

I too am in full time employment, although last week felt more like full time & a half with the amount of overtime I ended up doing!

As I have already said, being officially “disabled” required a lot of mental and emotional work to accept as, whilst I do feel so very fatigued ALL of the time, I didn’t and don’t feel disabled, but that could be down to my age and upbringing.

One other thing to bear in mind is that, realistically, none of us have done anything to “deserve” our blood cancer other than by being born.

Take care, stay safe, keep on smiling and be kind to yourself.

Jimbo165

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Hey there @Amyyy, a great big welcome to the forum. Bet you wish you didn’t have to be here! But I’m glad you found it, it’s really a supportive place and you’re never alone here as dear @Erica and @Jimbo165 have already shown.

I’m so sorry to read of your diagnosis, and at such a young age. You’re right that it’s a rare illness, and Essential thrombocythemia (ET) is really uncommon at any age. I can imagine how scary it feels to be diagnosed with something like Essential thrombocythemia (ET) because I found out last year that I have Polycythaemia vera (PV), a closely related Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN) to Essential thrombocythemia (ET). Maybe I can offer some reassurance from my non-medical but lived experience of Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN)?

It sounds like you’re in the ideal situation with Essential thrombocythemia (ET) by not needing any treatment like aspirin or chemotherapy—this would be my preference. Having regular blood tests and being on “watch and wait” AKA active monitoring will mean your doctors are checking regularly for any changes to your blood cells. With MPNs we can have raised levels of different blood cells, like platelets, due to us having gene mutations that increase production of blood. Usually it’s a JAK2 gene mutation. This overproduction of blood can cause blood clots, which is why we’re often prescribed a cytoreductive medicine like hydroxyurea or interferon to reduce the amount of blood our bodies make. Less blood means less risk of clotting. We also typically have regular phlebotomy to remove excess blood while our bodies get used to the cytoreductive medicine. Phlebotomy is basically like donating blood and is usually done when our blood tests show our haematocrit is above 45 % (more viscous) and thus at higher risk of clotting.

From my perspective a year on from diagnosis, it does get to feel less scary and less overwhelming. Perhaps without any obvious treatment it might feel less real, or less serious. It can be hard to explain to others what we’re living with as it can often seem ‘invisible’ even though for some it can also be disabling.

I’d say, from speaking with haematologists, attending a blood cancer conference, and reading clinical research, these Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN) can be lived with into normal old age no matter what age we’re diagnosed. Googling our prognoses will only bring up generalised, sometimes out of date, and often inaccurate information. Better to stick with recently researched information, so perhaps you’d like to read the Blood Cancer UK research about Essential thrombocythemia (ET): Essential thrombocythaemia | Blood Cancer UK The Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN) information is really helpful too: What are myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN)? | Blood Cancer UK

Do ask your specialists about your diet and vitamins, but so long as you eat healthily and exercise like you already do then there’s no need to change. Getting outdoors is great and might help you let some of the worries go. Nature therapy/forest-bathing or simply being out in nature is really helpful for alleviating anxiety and that sort of build-up of overwhelm, so get out there! Stretchy exercise like yoga, tai chi, and Pilates are really good for both mind and body and can help give energy when fatigue is an issue, according to recent research on living with cancers. I was vegan before diagnosis and my haematologist is happy I still eat healthily and doesn’t think I need to add anything, but do be wary of adding iron into your diet as it can increase blood production, which we definitely don’t want more of! I think there’s probably a lot of unscientific stuff out there about different foods being good/bad for cancer, but really we just need to eat healthily and not get fixated on some miracle cure as, sadly, there currently isn’t one for Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN).

If you’d like any information about how being in nature can help anxiety, I’d be happy to share some findings. Similarly, if you have the bandwidth for it I can share some research on Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN) such as ours.

But for now, try not to let the worry take over and stop you from being active. Take your time telling people, and don’t worry if it’s hard to explain to others what you’re living with—even some medical folks seem to find it hard! Make sure you have loved ones you can be open with about all this as it’s a lot. Share and share alike, I say.

Finally, I’d say something that helps me personally is keeping notes of changes in my body and mind. It can help to reflect back on how things progress, stay the same, or any sudden new side effects, and these observations can be helpful to share with our doctors to decide on our treatments.

Hope this helps @Amyyy. Sorry I went on a bit! Do please keep us posted about how you get on, and maybe look around the forum and see if others with Essential thrombocythemia (ET)/Myeloproliferative neoplasms (MPN) have shared experiences that might resonate with you. You’re not alone with Essential thrombocythemia (ET) here!

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Hi @Amyyy and welcome to the forum :blush:.

I’m sorry to hear of your diagnosis. While I have a different blood cancer (I was diagnosed with chronic myeloid leukaemia over 12 years ago), I can relate to the feeling of overwhelm and fatigue.

A blood cancer diagnosis knocks you sideways both physically and psychologically, but you will find your way and what is right for you.

I echo all the brilliant guidance already shared by others. Above all be kind to yourself, listen to your body and keep talking :blush:.

Take care,
Maggie

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