Evening all,
I’m just here to have a grumble, I’m having a difficult week with my health and it’s been my blood test today so I’m dreading the results next week now. Ive felt really good the past few weeks and felt really healthy and positive and then this week, which just happens to be my dreaded blood test week I wake up with terrible sore throat and bad chesty cough - I feel really deflated! I hate feeling different and having people try to mollycoddle me. I was really feeling that my immune system was working well and that after a year on Imatinib my body was saying a big ‘f**k off’ to my Chronic myeloid leukaemia and now I feel like I’ve taken a massive step backwards and I’m really worried my bloods are going to be all over the place!
Sorry for moaning, I know I should feel lucky that there’s even such a thing as Imatinib but I just have the odd day where I feel like ‘why me?’
Lots of love xx
2Hi CarlaWild, Lots of love sent back to you, and a big hug. 'Why me?" is what I often think about, your not alone there. Although I find it is a very lonely place having blood cancer pretending your ok. I have Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia diagnosed 31st July 2025 (A Day I Will Never Forget!) I know how the dreaded blood test days feel, waiting to hear? I have had 2 bouts of sore throats, bad colds and they seem to last a lot longer now than before? Have a good grumble on here, we need to release our emotions, worries, and questions xx
Totally understand your feelings & just wanted to post to say that they are completely valid.
I don’t have an answer for you but you aren’t alone. Sometimes I found just accepting or recognising the feelings helped me to keep moving & often the next day or even later that day, I felt a little brighter or there was something else going on to distract me.
How are you feeling now? Any better?
Sending lots of good healing vibes
Hi @CarlaWild - I’m very sorry to hear that you’re having a tough week. And you’re not moaning at all. It’s really not nice when you feel poorly and then on top of that having to wait for the blood test results. It’s important to allow yourself to feel all the feelings without judgement. I was diagnosed with Chronic myeloid leukaemia 13 years ago, so can relate to the many different emotions, the “why me” and the waiting for test results. It’s not easy. Is there something nice you can do as a distraction? Perhaps a walk in the sunshine if you’re up to it or a good book or TV show if you’d prefer something more relaxing.
Do take care and let us know how you get on.
Maggie